November 2011
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Drawing ponies and sexting.
Because my life is awesome.
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Do you ever just have that moment where you think,...
steveholtvstheuniverse:
Oh every day.
All I want to do is eat candy and smoke cigarettes and cuddle.
I was so drunk last night that he kept calling me a girl and comparing me to his ex girlfriend the entire time we were fooling around but I just didn’t give a fuck.
And fuck we were such bastards to each other the entire time. He kept calling me a whore and I kept calling him a slut and a bastard and a fucking queer. And then he’d go from insulting me to complimenting me and telling...
Mom found out I was drinking, mom found out I’ve been smoking. Had sex with my best friend. It was an interesting night.
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Folk punk and whiskey. Because yes.
The service is tomorrow. I don’t want to go. I haven’t gone to one of those things since my mom’s boyfriend died. That was six? seven? years ago.
My mom wants me to go. She knows I don’t mourn that way, but she’s afraid to leave me home alone. I’ll be fine alone, though. It’s being around sad people that I can’t really handle.
I just want to drink.
Whiskey and violent sex seem like perfectly acceptable ways to deal with grief.
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I don’t care how often you call me beautiful and how much I like hanging out with you. If you don’t respect my fucking boyfriend and stop talking down to him, I will kick you to the curb. You might be really great and all, but if you keep being judgmental about the whole BDSM/puppyplay thing, that’s it. I refuse to put up with this kind of behavior. You can say you’re just...
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I have every candle I own lit and I’m listening to “God Help The Outcasts” from Disney’s The Hunchback of Notre Dame.
noctem replied to your post: noctem replied to your post: So this is the…
Keaton? Yeah I know him. We were friends for awhile but then whenever he would text me all he would talk about was how depressed he was, why can’t he find someone to love, he wants to kill himself, etc.
Yeeeep. I stopped talking to him because I got tired of him only trying to sext me. And I really don’t like...
amandangerous replied to your post: noctem replied to your post: So this is the…
Fuck people who think that because you have something else going on in your life you deserved to be abused. No one EVER deserves abuse. I don’t care if you’re a fucking crackwhore who runs around naked. That does not give anyone permission to rape
Oh it gets better. I sent her the same thing I posted on here....
noctem replied to your post: So this is the message I received on facebook from…
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Yeeeeeeeah.
Don’t you like… know him? I mean, I know your sister does.
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So this is the message I received on facebook from my ex boyfriend’s mother…
Charlie…Against my better judgment, Keaton was at your house (except weekends) for an entire school year+. I was told by Diane that the two of you were originally going to be helping her with a side cleaning business she was starting. When I would call, come over or in any way speak to either of you...
Wooh, found out today that I can fail my English class without my financial aid being taken away! I don’t have to give a damn about anything that teacher says ever again. I will no longer be completely stressed out about her completely bullshit and biased grading system. It’s a very freeing feeling.
One less thing to have anxiety about, yay!
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My boyfriend: Footie pajamas are the best thing ever. Wait, no. You're the best thing ever. They're just second best.
Me: I bet I'm comfier to be inside.
My boyfriend: Suddenly I'm distracted...
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Funny how
I can go from being a completely unstable emotional wreck to being perfectly content with my life simply by getting to hear his voice for a little while.
noctem replied to your post: “But that’s a man’s wallet”
what the fuck
My thoughts exactly. Probably doesn’t help much that the girl who said that really annoys the fuck out of me as it is.
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"But that's a man's wallet"
No. Shut up, you stupid bitch.
It’s my goddamn wallet. I was not aware that using a leather wallet is gender-bending. Thank you so much for enlightening me.
Where do I even start with this?
It’s my wallet. I am a man. Therefore; yes, it happens to be a man’s wallet. I own a purse, too. That is a man’s purse. Because it belongs to me.
How fucking close-minded are you...
I’ve been really happy lately. Extremely content with my life and the people in it, able to control my temper for the most part.
So… why does my anxiety and paranoia seem to be steadily increasing?
rhubarbrastreisand replied to your post: My boyfriend
Where in heavens name do you find such mythical boys?
My boyfriend: The internet/ through friends (actually, he’s the ex boyfriend of the little sister of a girl I used to sorta have a thing with. Because I can’t get myself into romantic situations that aren’t at least somewhat complicated, apparently)
That other guy...
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My boyfriend
is the best boyfriend ever because he talks about wanting to suck the cock I don’t have yet.
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Went to the store and bought Hot Fuzz, some Clive Barker movie, a case for my drawing tablet, a pair of headphones, and a cookie cook book for Mom. They did not have pumpkin flavored candy corn, though. I am slightly disappoint.
Now to attempt to pass my Algebra test. Yaaaaaaay, factoring.
noctem replied to your post: Last night… last night was great. I showed him the…
WHY CAN’T I HAVE THIS :C
Because you don’t respond to my advances :P
Last night… last night was great. I showed him the new game I just bought and he made me borrow a gigantic stack of comics and graphic novels. And I made him watch the movie Snatch and he made me watch From Dusk Til Dawn and then he was going to leave because it was two in the morning but I got him to stay and we watched American Psycho and I fell asleep with my head on his chest because...
And this is why we will always call condoms...
That Guy: What would you say I told you that I had condoms in my wallet right now?
Me: I dunno.
That Guy: Would you believe me?
Me: Yes and no. I mean, it could go either way. I believe that you do, I also believe that you don't. We won't know until you open your wallet.
That Guy: ...was that a Schrödinger's cat reference?
Me: Yep.
This guy… this guy is great. He’s also napping in my bed right now, ‘cause I told him he has to. Poor thing didn’t sleep last night.
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My phone needs to work. I need to text him and I need to just… it needs to work because I get really anxious when it doesn’t. And I already gave in and took pills, but only because I kept coughing and I was feeling really miserable. So yes. Valid reasons for medicating myself. But I’m still anxious. And my phone really needs to stop messing up. Talking to him makes me feel...
“Ah, so you shall be misunderstood – is it so bad then to be misunderstood?...”
– ~Ralph Waldo Emerson (via iheartloons)
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poptartslutzz:
is it strange that i really love being a homemaker? seriously, making people feel comfy and cozy and taken care of is my top favorite thing. i rejoice when ever a friend lets me take care of them when they have a cold—all i really want to do is live with a group of people who want a twenty one…
Can I just… keep you forever?
noctem replied to your post: noctem replied to your post: I am just going…
Ahh okay. I thought so, but I didn’t want to assume. It might be working out so well because he does live out of state, so when you actually get to see each other it’s even better, but that’s just my opinion.
I always appreciate asking instead of assuming ^_^ And yeah, I think so too. This is just keeping us from...
noctem replied to your post: I am just going to
You lost me. So you’re seeing someone and you have boyfriend? Or is it the same person? .__.
Different person. My boyfriend lives out of state. We’re doing the whole polyamory/open relationship/whatever you want to call it thing. It’s working out quite well, actually.
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I am just going to
Eat peppermint ice cream and smoke cigarettes. And try to convince myself that I don’t need dextromethorphan to keep my anxiety under control. And think about that guy I’ve been seeing and how lovely it will be to touch each other again on Monday. And also think about my lovely boyfriend who is simply amazing and told me last night on the phone that I’m the best boyfriend ever.
I am out of cigarettes
And the menthol was making my throat feel better, too.
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I'm stuck between...
…hallucinations and imagination.
…mental disorders and attention.
…honesty and lies.
…overthinking things and simply accepting them.
…self-medication and health
…skepticism and belief.
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That guy: I bet you look cute when you sleep
Me: Psssh, I look cute all the time
Me: "Let's talk about you being a mortician. That's sexy."
That guy: "It makes some people quite stiff"
noctem replied to your post: This guy… this guy is great. We sort of went on a…
Aww that all sounds so wonderful! c:
It was! It was lovely and it was a type of loveliness that normally doesn’t happen with me. And some of the things he said were just… so perfect. I told him that people don’t actually say things like that in real life. And then we talked about The Truman...